Enduring this pain on my own, this is my freedom.
When Family Visits
... I'm going to layer on silk, like the armor of ancient Chinese warriors.
More than Surviving
We've all be there, that moment when we are certain we can't go another minute with things as they are.
Forgiveness
My sister told me a few days ago that she was having a hard time forgiving a close family member for betrayal, and she said she was afraid she was sinning by not forgiving immediately. It was a statement but a question too. She wanted to know what I thought. Funny how the woman who... Continue Reading →
The Fight Isn’t Over
I’m feeling an enormous amount of shame today, shame and worthlessness and everything that comes with them: hopelessness, sorrow, anger, lethargy, self-judgment. The trigger was a typical “not what I’m looking for” rejection, nothing significant, but I think I must have been ripe for the attack of shame and the sense of unwanted-ness that has... Continue Reading →
The Myth of The One
Isn’t it heartcrushing?
The Curse of Perfectionism
How do we know what we know? We're taught and told things. We observe people and events and objects around us. Some things are instinctual. But we also learn a great deal from personal experience. Sometimes what we learn is positive: I love sushi after all! And sometimes it isn't: I am never going to... Continue Reading →
Not Broken After All
Go to a coffee shop or a place where there are other people. Call a friend. Get out of your head.
The Value of My Body
My body doesn’t belong to me. Or so I’ve been told and believed most of my life. Who, then, does it belong to? It is God’s temple; it is my husband’s property; it is the government’s, the church’s, a politician’s to make decisions about. I am merely the innkeeper. I keep it clean—in every sense... Continue Reading →